Being Transparent

My husband has been very open about his weight loss journey. However, most people don't know I started on this journey with him as well. That's because I had no desire to be that open and transparent with people. One area of my life I've always struggled with is my self-esteem. I've never seen myself as pretty, smart, or even worth being around. So, I convinced myself that no one would care that I was working to lose weight. No one would want to keep track of my journey. So, I kept it to myself. I would quietly keep track of my calories and weigh in every week. I have always been my husband's biggest cheerleader and he has always been mine. This journey has been no exception.

However, as part of my renewing, I have developed a greater sense of self. Do I think I'm beautiful? No. Do I think I'm better than anyone else? Absolutely not! However, I do realize I am pretty (and that's all thanks to my husband for making me realize my value), I realize I am smart..not a genius but intelligent, and I am worth being around. Does that mean I spend time surrounded by friends? No. Most of my time is spent either at work, at home with my daughter (time very well spent) or home with my husband (which is time even more well spent). So, I have decided I will start blogging about my weight loss journey. No, I won't post pictures of the reading on the scale on weigh-in day. I'm not quite ready for that. However, I am going to share my successes and failures in my weight loss journey as well as my trip through life. Hopefully it won't bore you but maybe be a bit of an inspiration to someone.

So, here goes. I have been seriously working to lose weight since January. I haven't had a potato chip since October (and if you know me well, you know that's a hard one for me!), I've only had ice cream twice during that time. I've walked more than I ever did before, I find myself thinking about what is going into my mouth and being aware of the calories in everything I eat and drink. I look at labels to compare brands. I know what things I need to keep out of my diet, what things I can have on special occasions and what things I can have as often as I like. I track every calorie I take in as well as the exercise I do every day. It's a good way to really focus on how much I'm taking in. I haven't lost nearly as much as my husband has. I have up and down weight weeks. But I know it's all going to work in the end. So, I press on. Thursday is weigh in day. Anxious to see what this week brings. Hoping for a good loss. Prepared for a gain. Either way, I'll let you know...and then I'll continue on my journey. Maybe someone is interested in my progress.

♥ Brenda